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My name is Jordan. Here's a story. I was a shy kid. Growing up it was just easier for me to push people away than to make friends. I had friends, but it took a while for me to come out of my shell. In my college years, it just became too much work for me to meet new people, so I just kind of gave up. To say I was anti-social is an understatement. After I dropped out of college in 2004, I started working full time. There was about a two year period where all I did was go to work. No friends, no social activities - just work. I just didn't feel like I needed friends. I was proud of my self-sufficiency. I was proud of the fact that I didn't need people. In the spring of 2006, I met a girl that changed my life. I was lonelier than I realized and held on to this girl and didn't let go. She was all that mattered and we formed quite an unhealthy dependence on each other. Our relationship progressed rather quickly and after dating for only a few months we became engaged. The closer it got to the wedding date the more doubts we had, but we were so deep in that we kind of ignored the red flags. In the fall of 2006, a couple of months before we were to be married, we discussed whether or not we were doing this for the right reasons and in her state of confusion she cheated on me. I don't blame her. I think we were both looking for a way out. But it was heart-breaking for the both of us. I remember very clearly driving home the night she confessed. I heard God quite audibly tell me that the relationship had to end the way it did because we were ignoring the red flags. It took something that devastating to make us realize how unhealthy our relationship was and what a mistake we were making. That's when everything changed. I realized that even though I had given up on God many years before -- He never gave up on me and He saved us from making the biggest mistake of our lives. And for this reason I started going back to church where I met some people that really helped me get through my heartbreak. It took a long time to get over her, but when I did, I found myself in a tricky situation. I was still quite unhealthy in my isolation. I was still anti-social -- only now I knew that I did, in fact, need people to help me navigate through life. One Sunday morning, in the fall of 2006, my preacher was talking about how God works through relationships with people and if we give up on people we are essentially giving up on God. You can imagine how hard that message hit me. I had wasted so many years of my life foolishly thinking that I didn't need anyone. But no one changes overnight. I was still incredibly shy and it took most of 2007 to become comfortable enough with myself to actually put myself out there and get involved in my church and make friends. It was during this period that I began challenging myself to write songs that are honest and that actually meant something, at least to me. I had been playing music and writing songs since 2002, when I was 18. But I was never truly satisfied with anything I had written. I sometimes felt like I didn't have the life experience to really write a meaningful song. However, after what I had been through in 2006 and 2007, I started writing songs almost as therapy to just get all that I was feeling on paper. The end result was a collection of personal, suprisingly honest songs that helped me deal with my past. I honestly feel like a completely different person now. I've gone through a lot of shit but it has made me the man I am today and I am thankful for every mistake I made along the way. I believe that people can change. Welp...we all have our stories...